Prove you wrong.

You belong with me.

Sent bby off in the morning, gave my presentation a miss. Worth it. Very worth it. Did not shed a single tear, was a very strong girl. Looking at his back view as he went off with the other recruits, my heart shattered. In my mind, thousands and millions of questions flashed by. Will my bby suffer inside? What if they ill-treat him? What if he couldn't take it? What if, what if, what if. None were about our relationship, all were about his welfare. I know we can make it. Because I believe in us. Honestly speaking, he has the ability to make me just set my eyes on him. Ignoring all the other handsome, pretty guys that walk pass in my life. I know it is unbelievable but that is the truth.

Before leaving him, had a meal with his family and him. I really couldn't bear to leave him :< A peck on the mouth and there we goes, 18 days not gonna see each other, at all. This is like the 1st time after 3months being together. I know, I got to be strong. Regretted not hugging him before letting him go, wish I could run up to him and hugged him for the rest of my life. Seeing how strong his family were, make me wonder, why should I cry? Held back the tears, smiled through the journey back home.

Headed out to meet linda and zhenghan to take my MC and also head off for dinner. Chit chatted with them, before heading off to Jurong Point to make a cake for yingxuan. Bby called me and I swear, that was the happiest moment in my life. Up to now, I only rmb that moment so yeah, that's the best moment. Asked bby how's in there, and his reply make me feel even more depress. Fuck the Sargent or whatever shit, see them one time beat one time :<

Abt to hang off, and I just couldn't bear. I wished he could be infront of me, letting me hug, letting me kiss and just bickering over small things. Throwing some temper and he will come and sweet talk me. Fuck. I need to grow up. Tears was in my eyes and as I walked back to find linda and co., I fucking teared :< I just couldn't hang on anymore. I miss you boy, I really do. You were always there for me through the nights, while I rushed my projects you would be there. Waiting for me to finish up so we could get to bed together. I thought it would be forever, till NS came. Fuck.

Faster rushed home, saw bby's text saying he is gng to bed. Saying he could only text me tmr night. I can't hold on anymore and tears just run down. I'm not sure if this is weak, but this is harsh. Seriously, I Don't get it. WHY NS HAVE TO TAKE AWAY MY BOYF FOR 2 FUCKING YEARS. Arghhhhhh :<

Uploaded some photos I took with bby before he became a botakboi90. Now, I end my day blogging this. Allowing my boy to have a catch up in my life after 18 days. I fucking swear after 18 days I'm gng to hug him like no tomorrow. stick with him 24hours a day. Not gng to let him leave my sight! (K, maybe for showering, shitting, peeing)

Tonight gonna be a tough night. Goodnight boy, i love you. (Send flying kisses to tekong)