Never once had.

I can't help but love you.

10th Aug,

Headed to bed only at abt 3plus as I got home that late.... woke up 7am plus this morning. Sigh I look like zombie, totally! Seniors were asking me if I took weed, HELLO I DON'T. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WTS IS THAT!!!!! Headed to school without laptop, feel damn accomplished. But y'know what? I borrowed my classmates ipad to play so... no diff ah. I'm like still kind of distracted FML. First lesson was blaw presentation, my whole group nobody wear formal LOL. Okay, one guy wore semi formal so yeah.. Still.. I hope we get good marks since we really throw our reputation away T.T

Headed for lunch with the classmates and then to the next class. Tried my best to pay attention, luckily teacher gave notes. Gonna do the past year paper soon.. soon enough. Before next consultation next wed! ;) Headed to work after that, and went over to JP find yaya and Daphne! Bby called while Yaya was closing shop. His platoon's hp kenna confiscated wts. I'm like so pissed la. It is like, IMMORAL. Fuck them FUCK THEM HARD _l_ . Now I can only hear bby's voice at night.. sigh. So Promise myself, everyday before 10 must reached home! I know I can ;) Because I love bby. Love him so much.. Hanged off abt 15mins later, keep telling bby to be a strongman!! Because I know both of us are like.. breaking down anytime soon. Sigh. Chit chatted with Daphne and Yaya for awhile, and cabbed home with Daphne.

I'm like bloody tired right now.. not gng study today I guess :< Shall make it up tmr then. Sigh. Have to study, I NEED FUCKING A's!!! If not.. really the end manz. Deprived of sleep now.. everyday need at least 8hrs of sleep, no joke. Without bby, I become so lazy now. lazy go out, lazy make up, lazy dress, everything lazy! Just wanna stay at home and nuaaaaaa my day away!!

On a brighter side, bby's booking out in like one more week! Yes I've fucking survived for 11days.

Though sometimes, in the middle of the day or night, I would so feel like breaking down.. I keep telling myself I've got to be strong. Just because of you bby, because of you.