Kill those memories.

When every else doesn't matter.

Didn't managed to blog ytd as I'd a tough day and night. Everything just proves to me how insignificant am I to everybody, except for my boiflen. Went to work in the morning, supposed to work till 5/6, in the end 2plus can go off alrdy. Somehow, I really hate it. Makes me earn so lil. Fuck it.

Didn't joined wenloong they all as they watching horrible bosses which I'd alrdy watched. Linda didn't want to meet, no one else I could turned to. That was when I realised, I'm all alone. Nobody would always be there for me. When I want to meet just someone, not even a fucking soul are willing. How awesome right? Lonely. And all I could think of was if bby was here, I would just go to Yishun without second thoughts.. but.. sigh.

Headed home, slacked around at home till about 5.30 before heading out to meet wenloong, jovin, jiani, lynn, jestor and lionel. Initially I alrdy did not have the mood to meet as I'm so reluctant to head out and anw, it was meant for wenloong's birthday celebration what. Although our birthdays are 3days apart, mine doesn't matter. I GET IT NOW.

Had Marche, went for pool, slacked at swensen, sang happy birthday song to wenloong with cake. Sweet came and passed me my present, how lovely. She's the only thoughtful one who had got me a present (excluding elaine since she was down with chicken pox, couldn't meet us:<). The others? Wenloong only ;)

After much discussion, they decides to head down to PH. Well, I was considering it very seriously as I'd promise bby I would not go down club for 19 days! However, everyone is gng and y'know what, Jestor said "underage confirm can go in, nvm one. No need pay entry fee also" So cabbed down, and that's when I really couldn't take it anymore. I mean like for god's sake, you want to go PH so much but it doesn't mean YOU'VE GOT TO LIE. Beforehand, I ALRDY STATED THAT I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING IC. If you're clever, you would have guessed, ya right need to check IC. Feeling so down, paranoid, fucked up and now with this mother fucking problem. I walked away. Jovin was chasing me while I make my way out to take a cab home.

Cabbed home, and I teared inside the fucking cab. Been long since I cried for friendship, and guess how much I've been hurt. Just use your heart and think, is it my fucking fault to make such a nuisance? Well, if you think it is, fine go ahead. You do not fucking deserve me.

Anw, photos of the present Sweet prepared for me ;)

I fucking love this because it is so unique. A ring! With "HPL" Thanks joycelyn (L)

What does it proves to me my dear, is that wenloong is more impt than me. You all do not have the mother fucking time to get me a present, to celebrate with me but you all got the time to buy him a present and celebrate with him. Seriously, is it fucking fair for me? Just fucking use your brain and think k. Yes I'm this childish but I'm utterly disappointed with y'all. Fucking disappointed till the extend that I somehow wished to have no more communication with y'all. K sua. Thanks for teaching me an important lesson, till then.

My bby didn't scold me for wanting to go PH, he was so understanding.

And that's why I love him so much. Always thinking rationally, always giving me strength to move on. Hehe, 我爱你! (Loves & Kisses)

XOXO