Down the road

I realised I'm so empty, without you.

Second day, sucks. Woke up, headed to school, went to work, home sweet home. Simple as that. No feel to talk, no feel to move, no feel no feel no feel. I'm so fucking weak without bby by my side. HOW TO SURVIVE FOR 16MORE DAYS AND 1YEAR PLUS?! Update bby who am I gng lunch with, what am I doing, which lesson am I gng, where am I gng. Though I know he wouldn't reply every single text, knowing he got it is fine with me alrdy. It is like, I feel he will know where am I and what am I doing. Feel like, we are just side by side. Yes I Know we're, cos he is with me, in my heart ;)

He called me at 9plus pm, was damn excited. But, his voice scare me. He seems so weak, and it hurts me. I wish I could be there to give him moral support, or to give him more strength. I want him to be okay. I want to see him becoming a man. And, best part is, I know he has the ability to! I know he can, because he is my boy. Not yours, not his, not theirs but MINE. M.I.N.E.

Ever since he went into army, I realised how much I really love him. I've taken him for granted :< I thought he would always be there, thought we had whole lots of time. Obviously, I was wrong. Right now, I hope time passes as quickly as 3 months had gone by. Praying everyday he will be safe, he will be fine, he will be strong. Praying he gets enough rest and he gets to be praised and not tekan. Pray..

Might be meeting beanice to get smth later on.. but she's a slowpoke!! And I'm sleepy alrdy :< Reflection anyhow do, tmr got small quiz. Sigh, I do not have the fucking mood to do a single shit of work right now! On the other hand, I want to complete as many things as I can so that I can accompany bby 24hrs after he book out! That's the only fucking motivation I'd to study!! And that starts.. tmr I guess(Wonder when is my real tmr though:\)

Still contemplating to sleep or to wait...... sigh.

"I swear I will I will make you my wife"